Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Cupcakes!!



mmmm.. I seriously LOVE baking! One of my favorite things to bake, are cakes. In any form. Frosting and decorating them is also the best thing about it. I made my own birthday cake last year, but silly me, I didn't take any pictures! But it was an adorable cake, hot pink and yellow, so cute! well I just made these mini cupcakes along with regular sized ones. I might put chocolate covered strawberries as a topping on those! mmm yum!

Monday, January 12, 2009

Monday, December 29, 2008

Then I Came Home

Does distance really make things more difficult for two people? or does it just prove the strength of them? I have been fighting and trying to see how strong I am in my relationship for two and a half years (mostly long distance). Everything that first year seems to shine so bright, gleaming with a mocking pride onto the other years that follow. Everything that year had so much thought, and even the arguments were thoughtful; 'How do I say this one thing, without hurting your feelings, but still conveying mine?' Now we seem to just splash everything everywhere, not caring as much where it's going to land. I swore to myself many times, before I even could picture myself in a realtionship, that I wouldn't ever become the girl that stayed in, just out of fear or comfort. But when do you know you're just sticking around? How do you know you should put those big gloves down, let your muscles relax, and let go of the weight you have been lifting, the one that becomes heavier each round...

Monday, December 15, 2008

More festive nights, this time Bang bang!

Last night I dreamt that I was in a bathroom watching TV with three other people and in burst these four men. One was yelling at the girl that was to my left telling her to change the channel. But there was no remote for the screen, so we couldn't change the channel. He grew more agitated when this was explained, so he pulled out a gun. He said he wanted to see how good his aim was and he began shooting in my direction. I was able to shut the door but one bullet made its way through and hit me in the stomach.

I woke up

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Four walled Nightmares

I keep having nightmares. I am being chased in a building and there is nothing I can do but run. There is a man that is after me and he is trying to kill me, or someone I care about. There was a man in a suit that was trying to kill my brother in my last nightmare. I was trying to help my brother by distracting the man, but he somehow knew where my brother had escaped to.
I really wish that I knew what this meant. I can't remember my nightmare from last night. I do know that there was a lot of blood. I am always in a building of some sorts. Maybe I should stay away from small buildings with people I don't know well.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

The week comes to an end.

I had my last final yesterday, and my final on Tuesday was surprisingly easier than I had thought it was going to be.
I am leaving to go home tomorrow and I haven't even begun packing. I don't want to think about having to do it.
My stomach has been hurting all day.
I think its because I just want to go home.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Wake up

Last night I dreamt that I only had a week for my semester break.
I kept crying over and over again. I couldn't believe that I was only getting a week to relax after all of the work that I had to do for my classes.

I woke up.